Revival

We all need a revival sometimes. I do.

For the last few years, I was working a second job, actually running pretty ragged. I got into it for all the right reasons, I thought. But eventually realized it was just too much. So a few months ago, I left that position.And began the process of adjusting to my current routine, and just resting. I also find myself living more fully, paying attention more to life around me.

In our families, we can't leave that job behind. 24-7 someone is counting on us. But we can look seriously at our commitments and make some choices about what is really most important. 

So with this in mind, I am reviving this blog that I let slip. My life work has been about children and families. And that is still very meaningful for me. But I also want to shift the focus here somewhat.

We ALL need guidance. We all need help along the way. And life is full of change, as we shift our focus slightly, growing with those around us. What helps us to flow with this process? Where do we reach for inner and outer support? What are you reading? What poetry makes you smile or gives you a boost?

You Reading This, Be Ready
by William Stafford

Starting here, what do you want to remember?
How sunlight creeps along a shining floor?
What scent of old wood hovers, what softened
sound from outside fills the air?

Will you ever bring a better gift for the world
than the breathing respect that you carry
wherever you go right now? 

Are you waiting for time to show you some better thoughts?

When you turn around, starting here, lift this
new glimpse that you found; carry into evening
all that you want from this day. This interval you spent
reading or hearing this, keep it for life -

What can anyone give you greater than now,
starting here, right in this room, when you turn around?

You Reading This, Be Ready
William Stafford
Starting here, what do you want to remember?
How sunlight creeps along a shining floor?
What scent of old wood hovers, what softened
sound from outside fills the air?
Will you ever bring a better gift for the world
than the breathing respect that you carry
wherever you go right now? Are you waiting
for time to show you some better thoughts?
When you turn around, starting here, lift this
new glimpse that you found; carry into evening
all that you want from this day. This interval you spent
reading or hearing this, keep it for life -
What can anyone give you greater than now,
starting here, right in this room, when you turn around?
- See more at: http://blog.stenhouse.com/archives/2010/06/18/poetry-friday-you-reading-this-be-ready/#sthash.jbZw1HlA.dpuf

You Reading This, Be Ready
William Stafford
Starting here, what do you want to remember?
How sunlight creeps along a shining floor?
What scent of old wood hovers, what softened
sound from outside fills the air?
Will you ever bring a better gift for the world
than the breathing respect that you carry
wherever you go right now? Are you waiting
for time to show you some better thoughts?
When you turn around, starting here, lift this
new glimpse that you found; carry into evening
all that you want from this day. This interval you spent
reading or hearing this, keep it for life -
What can anyone give you greater than now,
starting here, right in this room, when you turn around?
- See more at: http://blog.stenhouse.com/archives/2010/06/18/poetry-friday-you-reading-this-be-ready/#sthash.jbZw1HlA.dpuf

Facing life's challenges

Wow.... there are all kinds of challenges. And the no matter what we do, and how we work to improve our lives, we can't avoid the suffering.... the difficulties that come up. We get sick.... or family members. The weather doesn't cooperate and we have to just deal with it. The social and political environment is out of our control. Someone bullies our child or grandchild.... or us. What we can learn how to deal with these things with more grace.

I've been hit by back pain. I can't sit for long periods of time, so I am not at my computer very much... or for very long. Funny thing is I had been wanting to figure out how to slow down my pace.... well, the universe answered and knocked me on my back, icing it and resting it whenever possible. I suppose there are things I could have done to avoid this.... like better self care, but it is what it is for right now.

This experience is teaching me some things. First, acceptance is a spiritual tool. Denial, Fear, Anger - these don't help, ever! Acceptance helps me to stay in the present and do the next right thing. Acceptance keeps me out of fear and depression. Acceptance reminds me that there are many things that are outside of my control.

Second, what we have is now. How many times to I have to be reminded of this? Well, probably a million! The quality of my life is in the moments... not some time in the future. So remembering to stay in the present is a gift of pain.

Third, we're not supposed to go it alone.... Isolation is a killer. Isolation leads to depression. Reaching out and asking for help are necessary.... and additional gifts of pain. Hard to do for some of us, but a must. People can't read our minds, so we need to ask. When we are hurting or ill, people are willing to help. Even if we are not.... they are often willing.

Children are our teachers again and again. They do not spend much time worrying about the future or regretting the past. They are in the here and now, fully immersed in what they are doing. In fact, it can be hard to pull them away when we have something else in mind. And they need us to continue to teach them by showing them how to live.... in healthy ways. The only way out is through....so true... one moment at a time.

Enjoy the moments!

Behind the wheel

As I passed the local high school on my way to an appointment, I was pretty blown away by the number of cars in the school parking lot. When my sons were in high school, it had been packed! Now it is only about half full or even less. This is a significant shift in philosophy..... and probably also influenced by the economic situation. Fewer teens are driving to school, though I'm sure many are still driven there because I have been there at the "wrong" times and gotten stuck in the traffic jam in front of the school.

What a rat race we have created! And I was swept into the race as a child. Raised in San Diego, you could hardly go anywhere without wheels.... and I don't mean a bicycle. So the car became a need. I got my license when I was 16 and an old Morris Minor and used it to get to work. I guess my parents paid the insurance, because I don't remember doing that, but I paid for my gas and soon was paying my way for quite a few things (of course, everything cost much less then). And I loved the freedom.

Until a few years ago, when asked if I wanted to walk somewhere.....often I would say, "If you're driving I'll go." Today, walking is part of my regular routine. This included walking to the local grocery store or mall. And I often walk to the movies. Of course, I am very fortunate to live within a mile or so of these places. We used to dream of living out in the country, but now we are very glad to live in town. And today I recognize that this gives me another kind of freedom, Certainly I use my car just about daily because I still have commitments that take me further from home, but I drive less, and walk more.

So what messages are we giving our children about cars and driving? With fuel being burned much faster than we can produce it, what will the future look like for our children and grandchildren? What else can give us a sense of freedom? Life is a journey, and it seems to me our mode of transportation along the was does make a difference.

Leaning a little

I began this blog a few years ago with the intention of focusing on children.... and our relationship with them. How can we help and guide them? The reality - we guide them in everything we do, whether we realize it or not.... or pay attention or not. Though most of my life work has focused on children, as a teacher and mother, at this time in my life I feel some shifting as I teach less.... and have grown children.

Also in many of these posts, I have stressed how important it is to take care of ourselves. This self care includes all those things we do to nurture our own physical, emotional, and spiritual health and well being. And I believe self care is probably one of the most necessary and valuable things we can and should do. How can we care for others when we are a wreck ourselves?!

So I have been thinking about doing something different. I'm not sure what exactly this blog will look like, but I am hoping to re-energize myself. I love to write, and find regular journal writing very insightful. As I write, I get guidance as the juices start to flow. So, I am going to start carrying a little booklet around with me and get into the habit of writing down ideas when they come to me. Before writing my book, Guiding their way - Day by Day, that is what I did, and the ideas kept coming every day, multiple times in a day, until I had over 365 entries.

Up until now, I have followed the pattern of many bloggers - I began with passion and consistency and over time, life demands seemed to get in the way, so my posting slowed to a trickle. Starting now, I'm going to lean a little .... not going entirely off the path, but possibly gazing a slightly different angle that will very likely take me in some other directions. And I may even eventually discover a different name. For now, I re-commit to at least weekly, if not more frequent entries. We shall see.

Life is a process. So much is unpredictable and out of our control. What I can do is write and reflect and keep looking for guidance from friends, family, children, media.... and continuing to grow myself into the person I am supposed to be. To those who will come along - Thanks for joining me. I welcome topic ideas, questions.... Yes, let's keep asking questions.

Caught not Taught

Let's take a fresh look at what "guiding" is all about. It is too easy to believe that we have power, that we can control the direction of children's lives. At the same time, when things go wrong, we too often allow ourselves to take all the blame, "If we had only done....."

Yes, we have influence, but children come with their own inner compass based on their abilities, their temperaments, their environment. We can provide stability, emotional and physical support, appropriate information, a rich, variety of experiences. But like creating a delicious vegetable soup, the final outcome is part magic, and out of our control.

We also get into trouble if we are guiding them and not taking our own advice. We "know" what's best for this child or that person, but how often do we take the time to live this way ourselves. We want children to be healthy, and eat well, but we often grab whatever is available when we are on the run. We want children to be fit, but we are not positive role models when we drive instead of walking a few blocks to the nearby store or library. We want them to take their time with their homework and check their answers, but we experience the panic when we rush through a project, or find ourselves being chronically late.

Much of who we are today was not "taught" to us. We learned through trial and error. And if we were lucky, we may have learned some through good examples.

What might help us to slow down? How might we take better care of ourselves? What is a reasonable amount of tasks to accomplish in a day? What do we need to live in balance emotionally, physically, and spiritually? The best guidance we can give is demonstrated by right living.

Gratitude for today

How quickly each day passes. How precious our time with family and friends.

I am away from home, visiting with family and remembering things from the past, sharing stories with family members. I cherish these times, and am reminded yet again how easy it is to get swept up in the day's busyness and forget where we came from. No matter what the exact circumstances, all of our experiences lead us to where we are today. It doesn't help to dwell on things in the past and get stuck back there wishing things were different today. Acceptance is important. And time remembering can bring us to gratitude for right now.

I am grateful for the love and friendship of family and friends.
I am grateful for the wonder and joy of the young children in my life.
I am grateful for the cool, refreshing autumn mornings.
I am grateful for health and energy.
I am grateful for this day, and this time.

Yes, things are also happening around us that are troubling and frustrating. But frankly, we are powerless over them. We cannot really change those things right now, but we can work on our own attitude. And gratitude puts us in the here and now. Children need us to be present with them, focusing on their needs. They also learn from us when we show them how to take care of ourselves, how to balance our lives and be careful about getting carried away by too much.  Yes, we need to plan, some. And thankfully, we also learn from children ...to play. They can teach us so much.... especially how to be grateful in this moment.

Just for today.... just for now.... gratitude.

Guidance in the Pause

So sorry, kind readers. I have not written regularly. Life has taken me down many different paths. I write in a journal more than weekly, and decided to check in here today. I am making a slight twist in the topics here - Guiding our way, day by day. Where do we find guidance for our daily choices and decisions?

There are so many times during every day when we make choices. Of course many of these times are the mundane things of every day - what to have for breakfast, what to wear, which store to go to for groceries, what activities would be fun for me or the family today, what chores need to be done and when. The need for choices goes on and on.

But there are other choices, too - How do I react to that rude driver? What do I say in response to that tough question? What do I really need to do right now for my health or well being? What will I say to the kids when they are "driving me crazy?" It is so easy in the tension and rapid pace of our days, to react without thinking. Better to pause.... even if just for a moment to consider the "next right thing" or the truly kind or appropriate thing to say or do. Pause... one of those things that is simple, but not easy. When I pause, I am much less likely to say or do things I will regret. I'm less impulsive. I am more thoughtful.

To be of support to others, to do all those daily things with compassion and ease - we do best to pause and consider. This way, we get the guidance we need to do our best.

Just for today

This is all we have. Today. It is so easy to forget this as we regret the past - what we didn't accomplish or what went wrong or what we missed out on. Or we stay focused on the future and what will be happening tomorrow.

Kids are such wonderful teachers in this regard. Watch them. They are right here now. Right in the mix of whatever is going on for them, what you see is what you get. Their feelings of pleasure, joy, sadness, and anger are right here. Their enthusiasm for what they are playing or learning is obvious. Or their disappointment when they are not getting their way.

And of course, we are teachers for them, too... in many ways. Sometimes when they want it now, we need to remind them that they need to wait.When they are angry and express it in hurtful ways, we remind them to use their words and be kind.

The lesson for us all is to experience today. Be present to whatever happens. Follow your heart. Notice what is going on around you.

More letting go

One of the toughest things to do is to do our best, and then let go of the outcome. We want so much to control the situation. This starts when our kids are very young, and continues as they grow. We want our kids to eat breakfast without fighting us. We want them to stop fighting each other and play cooperatively. We want them to pay attention in school and do their homework. We want them to make healthy, safe choices instead of rebelling and testing everything. There are many things we want for them. And yet all we can do is our best and hold onto our love and hope for them.

I have sometimes had pangs of regret about my own kids when someone has told me with excitement about the wonderful, dramatic things their children were doing today as adults. When my sons were little, I had hopes about the ways they might make a difference in the world. And of course, they are wonderful young men in their own ways. We can't all be superstars. And in fact, most of us must be very content to do what we can in whatever ways we can.

Letting go of our expectations and our ideas about the ways things "should" be is hard. But expectations take us away from the present, from right now and the way things are. Our children are wonderful beings. They need love and care right now, wherever they are in their development and life choices. And just about as soon as they start stepping out in the world, and are influenced by other people, their choices are further and further out of our control anyway. They become their own persons.... and thank goodness, because their world, the one they will have to live in will be one we can't even imagine and we can't fully prepare them for.

The only person we really have the power to change is our self. We can work on our attitude. We can learn more and understand others better. So just for today, practice loving others and then letting go of those potentially crippling expectations.

Love

As Lennon and McCartney said, "All we need is love." As the holiday of love approaches, it seems appropriate to reflect on this.

Simple, maybe. But certainly not easy. No matter how much we love someone, there are plenty of times when it doesn't come across. We want the best for our loved ones... our idea of what would be best. So we let them know in words and deeds. It feels like our love has strings attached. "I love you when...." They do something we appreciate and we smile or thank them. When they are doing other things, we let them know we are upset or disappointed. This may feel like we don't love them.

How do we give the message of unconditional love. If anyone had the definitive answer, we wouldn't be thinking about this right now. Clearly, love is not easy. Loving takes lots of effort. We work hard to communicate that our loved ones are precious to us, no matter what. What might this look like?

       We give her a hug when she has just broken something precious to us.
       We attend his games faithfully, no matter what else we might have on
       our agenda.
       We remember a special personal holiday or anniversary.
       We try hard to not yell when we are upset, and we explain reasonably.
       We forgive all the little things that can pile up and feel like one big
       annoyance.

Now there are plenty of times when loving is easy. They can be so adorable or sweet or funny or kind. Loving during the hard times is how we really communication our unconditional acceptance of them. And there is also the consideration of doing too much for people in our attempts to be loved by them. This can take us into the dangerous territory of co-dependency.

"All you need is love." Of course, this is way too simple. We want our loved ones to know that we care about them. We want the best for them. We believe in them. We accept them just as they are. And we will be here for them through it all, good times and hard times. Love isn't all we need, but it certainly can make the journey a little less bumpy.